My restoration to sanity was my mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical transformation from that mindset. Today I know what to expect when I do certain things. I know what to expect if I behave negatively and I know what to expect when I behave positively. My silver bullet is the answer to all my concerns.
In simple terms, obsessive compulsive disorder is a disorder in which people have recurring, unwanted thoughts, ideas or sensations/ obsessions that make them feel driven to do something repetitively and compulsively. OCD is common, chronic and a long-lasting disorder in which a person has uncontrollable, reoccurring thoughts/ obsessions and or behaviors/ compulsions that he or she feels the urge to repeat over and over. This defined me perfectly. It was my trap that I thought I was going to die in.
The greatest gift that my recovery has given me is the Promises. I needed to know that the work I was expected to do for my recovery would revolutionize my life. These are the promises as listed in the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous.